Here I am again losing sleep over a boy. It seems like a constant theme in my life..boys..and how they did me wrong. As I tossed and turned playing back my most recent relationship in my head I couldn't help but wonder, when will this stop? When will this end?
I used to think that when I found him, the one and we lived happily ever after all this would end. It would have to, thats part of the deal, the term "happily ever after," makes that claim. But now I have come to realize that there is no happily ever after, its a myth, its like Santa Clause and the Tooth Fairy. It doesn't exist!
As long as you are breathing and are interested in having an intimate relationship with another person you can kiss your beauty sleep good bye. As long as you make someone a priority in your life, as long as you claim to love someone (other than your mother - actually, even your mother), as long as you let someone else effect you...you simply cannot have peace.
So what do you do? Should I be a hermit? Should I find a cabin in the woods and spend the rest of my days there ? God, I wish I knew the answer.
