Sipping Kool Aid

Like most Americans I did it, I went to college. Can I say like most Americans? Do most Americans go to college? Whatever, in my world they do. So like most Americans I went to college. I did it, I paid a ridiculous amount to learn things . I went to controlled environment far away from the nest to take a stab at individuality, growth and freedom. I can't say how much I learned and how it important it really is .. But all in all, I can attest that I did well. I did well in college. I studied and wrote papers and did readings. I have a plethora of over highlighted textbooks to prove it.

So here I am, almost three years later and I can safely say that I am not where I wanted to be. I am definitely NOT where I thought I'd be. A lot of this is because college does a terrible job managing expectations. At my commencement speech the speaker told us anecdotes of graduates before us being the new leaders of this country. He told us that we are the world. We are the future. We will shape tomorrow. We can do whatever we wish. Nothing is in our way. What A PIECE OF BULLSHIT. No one told me that when I graduated six months later, Id be laid off. Not because I lack talent (bc, I dont) but because the economy would collapse into the toilet. No one told me I'd be scrambling looking for a job as my six month grace period to all my student loans would end and that they would deny me unemployment deferment. So I'd be stuck paying tons of money in interest. No one told me that I'd lose my health insurance because once you turn 23 poof its gone, like it was never there ( I know, Obama did bring it back but I already have health insurance now, too little too late OB).

So basically NO ONE told me these things.

What I am saying now, the whole point of this entry really was that I am 24 years old, have a job, have health insurance, pay my bills BUT I feel unfulfilled - you know why? Because College did a terrible job at managing my expectations of what the future would be like. I thought I'd be a dot com millionaire by now, Id be sipping Kool Aid with Mark Zuck by now. I thought these things would happen. I thought my parents my would be proud by now. But here I am 24, unfulfilled.