Almost Valentines Day

It's almost Valentines day.

The first time I had a real Valentine was when I was a freshmen in college. He was this guy, that I really really loved but for whatever reason we were playing the friend game. He sent me tons of flowers and a Shakespeare sonnet telegram I think.. I cant remember. It was so romantic and I was the envy of all the girls in my hall. I felt so special.

My 2nd Valentine was when I was a junior in college. We had been dating for a little over a month. We went to go see the Hugh Grant and Drew Barrymore movie...Music and Lyrics I think it was called. Then I think we had dinner at some Italian restaurant, the details escape me. Overall, I think it was a good night.

My 3rd Valentine was with the same guy I shared my 2nd Valentine with, all I remember was that he bought me a Wii - it was a good Valentines day. I played Wii golf for months.

My 4th Valentines day I was alone. I cried most of the day then drank bubble tea and watched Lord Of The Rings.

My 5th Valentines day - well, that is on Monday and I'll let you know how it goes.

All these Valentines day stories surprise me because in all of them I was a spectator - all these things were happening to me. I didn't do much of anything, except for my 5th Valentine where I cried all day. I am not romantic, I love romance but I am not romantic. Are women supposed to be romantic? I've always thought that that's the guys job. All I have to do is show up in a sexy dress and you mister, are supposed to handle the rest of the evening.