Life is all about direction. Once you have direction everything about life seems so meaningful.
If you know where you are going, you appreciate the trip.
But, the most difficult thing to achieve is direction.
Direction:
1. a line leading to a place or point; "he looked the other direction"; "didn't know the way home"
2. guidance: something that provides direction or advice as to a decision or course of action
3. focus: the concentration of attention or energy on something; "the focus of activity shifted to molecular biology"; "he had no direction in his life"
Line-Guidance-Focus..or rather, Guidance-Line-Focus.
For myself the hardest task has always been to maintain direction. I establish my goals, write them out on a fresh new sheet of beaming white paper. Then I unleash myself until the paper is crumbled and dirty. I exhaust all options and angles. I want so much for my goal to be reached in a timely fashion.
Eventually I'll take the easy train out of the joint and be on the road to temporary relief and success.
It's like being a drug addict (not like crack or heroin) but prescription drugs like Vicodin. You think they can't be that bad since your doctor prescribed them but all of a sudden you are lying on the bathroom floor shaking manically because your prescription ran out. So you convince your doctor that your shoulder still hurts and he writes you up for two more refills. All of a sudden you are fine, that direction is back! It's temporary though. I am a sucker for instant gratification. I'll cheat, I always cheat. I've always cheated. I've just been lucky enough to not get caught.
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